Sunday, December 03, 2006
Fred from URL @ 3:49 PM
Yesterday was a day filled with ups and downs.I think there is more down than up.Met Khai,Saddiq and Naib at Dover Mrt.The day started at SP.Luqman join in while we are having the game.What a great game I had cos i scored quite a number of goals.Then after the game we proceeded to Beach Road to go makan.The food there was as usually delicious.Then Saddiq to go to Vivo city as planned.But everybody was damn tired already except me.Cos i could that on their faces.Thank god im used to this kinds situations as my past central training helped me alot in my physical and mental strength.Then at Vivo city we go window shop for a while then go to the last floor to slack.Then met the gurls there.The gurls consist of Faizah,Lynn and Isma.We took a few pictures together,chit chat for a while then go walk2 around Vivo again.They said they were bored at Vivo already.So they ask me to plan to go to somewhere and chill over there.So I said the esplanade but ended up at somewhere near to Suntec.We walk around for a while at Marina Square then went to the place to chill.The place reminds me alot of stuff.As usual Im always doing stupid stuff to keep my mind going so as not to think bout my problems but the problems have taken a toll on me already.Its been a fucking stupid ending to the day as i was usually on my way home alone.Isma and Naib was so damn pissed off with the rest already but they chose not show it.Same goes to me.The problems now begin to pile up.I must say Im kinda depressed as Im still in my recovering stage.My heart was so damn painful to hear and see stuff that make me think of the past.I almost cried in the train and bus but i controlled it until i reach my bus stop.Then i let it all out.Just feeling so damn down.I took a quite a while to cool myself down.My head was spinning like top that i could barely stand up.Almost vomitted everything out.I could run away from my life Im leading.I wish that everything would end in an instant instead it didnt.I want to finish what i started.Oh god,i need a new life.Seriously.When i was home i just couldnt seem to sleep as I was doing alot of thinking.In the end i slept at 6am in the morning.Then when i woke up today,the feeling was still there.Im just writing this out to see if people would understand what im feeling rite now.For now just leave me alone.I just dont need anyone in my life rite now.So just get the hell away from me.From now im goin to lead the life i want.Not the life they want.
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